Why are my friends "good" friends, while I'm a terrible friend

Hi everyone, sorry if this post is a bit too long or rambly, also I'm sorry for any typos, I'm translating from Portuguese, so there might be some mistakes along the way.<br><br>So for the past years I've noticed my friends have been doing good for themselves. They got better paying jobs, they can now afford a lot more things, they got cars for themselves, they're living in good apartments, one even got engaged and is planning to get married, so I'm also seeing some friends going to therapy to feel better, and overall they're getting a lot better in life, and they're keeping each other up as well, so my question is, why am I always the exception?<br><br>I was doing a little bit better last year, I got a job as a teacher, I was making some money, I was able to buy things I never would be able to buy, and I even managed to go to therapy for a short period of time, but then the job ended and I'm back to being unemployed, I've lost my motivation to go to therapy and I'm still unable to get a better paying job, and I just don't understand why this happens, and how to escape it.<br><br>I'm getting impatient, I'm 22 and all I did in life was sit in school, and the only thing I got from it is some little knowledge that I don't even remember much of it, I've never had a girlfriend, hell, I don't even have a crush, I'm also unable to even get a little money, I'm feeling terrible now, I just want to break free, I want to be able to be more than just a burden for my family, I want to feel like I'm doing something with my life, something to be proud of, I want to be able to help my family, I want to be able to make it my own way in life, and I just want to feel like I'm getting somewhere.<br><br>How do I do that? How do I get to be able to be proud of myself? How do I get to be successful? How do I do it? What do I do? Should I just wait? Should I just keep trying? What should I do?<br><br>I don't understand and it's killing me.