Who else is fucked up from being a member of this chamber?

I know that when my boyfriend first found an infestation of seed bugs in our mattress and bed I complained to mods about the fucked up things that people were posting. The mods have cleaned it up ever since, but not before I would scroll through and see pictures of people covered in seed bugs, wigs and different outfits, all of the weird fetishes people have for these fucking bugs. I have not been the same ever since and I have seed bugs in my mattress and walls and honestly my life is complete shambles. I know that I have read tons of posts about people not being able to sleep at night, having nightmares about the bugs, and generally just being miserable. I tell people I know that I have a bad infestation and it sometimes starts conversation, but no one has ever been in my shoes and felt like their life is over. I am too embarrassed to talk to a therapist about it, so I have to resort to internet strangers. Is it just me or do you people feel like your lives are fucked up from having to deal with this horrible infestation?