Never felt what I felt for my deceased sister-in-law

I am in my early 30s and I bear the name of my grandmother, who never married because she was born with some unusual features that people used to call polydactyly, and I didn’t know about it until I was in my early twenties when I discovered I had an extra finger on my right hand, a bear claw.<br><br>My grandmother was never married because of it and lived her whole life alone, I was never married until my late 20s when I met my lovely husband who is still with me after 5 years and I love him very much, I was always very afraid to show him my extra finger because I’ve always been ashamed of my polydactyly and I never told him about my grandmother, I always told him I was very afraid to show him because I have been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of my extra finger and polydactyly.<br><br>In my late 20s I got married and discovered that my husband had 5 siblings, he is the third sibling and I bear the name of my grandmother and I thought of it as a sign and downplayed all the strange things I felt about him not noticing my polydactyly.<br><br>In my late 20s I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>In my late 20s I knew my husband had 5 siblings and I bore the name of my grandmother, I thought of it as a sign and downplayed all the strange things I felt about him not noticing my polydactyly.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I knew my husband had 5 siblings and I bore the name of my grandmother, I thought of it as a sign and downplayed all the strange things I felt about him not noticing my polydactyly.<br><br>I knew my husband had 5 siblings and I bore the name of my grandmother, I thought of it as a sign and downplayed all the strange things I felt about him not noticing my polydactyly.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I knew my husband had 5 siblings and I bore the name of my grandmother, I thought of it as a sign and downplayed all the strange things I felt about him not noticing my polydactyly.<br><br>In my late 20s I knew my husband had 5 siblings and I bore the name of my grandmother, I thought of it as a sign and downplayed all the strange things I felt about him not noticing my polydactyly.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I knew my husband had 5 siblings and I bore the name of my grandmother, I thought of it as a sign and downplayed all the strange things I felt about him not noticing my polydactyly.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I knew my husband had 5 siblings and I bore the name of my grandmother, I thought of it as a sign and downplayed all the strange things I felt about him not noticing my polydactyly.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country and I was always afraid to show him my extra finger and polydactyly and the reason I was always afraid was that I had been hurt in my childhood by people calling me names because of it.<br><br>I was on a business trip with my husband in a foreign country