I just wanted to make some money by breeding my dog. My daughter is now dead.

I'm just writing this to get it out of my system, but I have this haunting feeling deep in my stomach for the most mindless thing I ever did. My daughter is now dead. She was just three years old. I can't tell my husband what I did. I can't tell anyone. <br><br>It all started when I read an article about breeding dogs. The article said that you could make tens of thousands of dollars if you got your dog licensed to breed, and I already had a dog. So why not? I spent about $1,000 getting her paperwork done. I had a vet come out to my house and check her health. I built a decent sized doghouse for her and got a male dog to come and mate with her. The whole process was very easy and simple. The male dog was with us for about three days. <br><br>I just let them do their own thing. I figured animals knew what they were doing. I gave birth to 7 healthy puppies after a five month pregnancy, and was surprised to find that they weren't the cutest things in the world. They were very violent. They bit and gnawed at each other to get to the good milk spots. I've never seen something like that before. I just left them alone to do their own thing. <br><br>One day, my daughter was playing outside with the dogs in the backyard. She had a basketball in her hands and she was just trying to get them to play with her. She walked up to the mother dog and the mother dog bit her head off. I didn't hear my daughter scream. I didn't hear anything. One moment she was there, the next she was dead. I saw her body and I just fell to my knees and cried. The whole thing happened in such a short amount of time. <br><br>I loved my dog. She was my childhood pet. I never should have let her do this. I never should have let her carry out an act that I knew nothing about. I just let her do everything by herself and now my daughter is dead. I can't tell my husband what I did. I can't tell anyone what I did. I just have to live with this guilt for the rest of my life. <br><br>I had the mother dog euthanized. The vet said she was stressed by the presence of my daughter and that's why she reacted the way she did. Do we really call that an excuse? My daughter is dead because of the stupid decision I made. I'm just... I don't even know.