My boyfriend is in a wheelchair and I didn't know until we met up

My(21f) boyfriend(22m) and I met on Tiktok. He's from another country so we had been talking online for a couple of months before meeting up. When we talked on Tiktok it was mostly through dm because he had a lot of followers and didn't want to make it public yet that we were talking. We discussed moving to his country because I had a job to transfer so I could continue working if we moved. <br><br>We finally met up this weekend and when I met him he was in a wheelchair. I was honestly shocked and upset. I would never have guessed that he was in a wheelchair because in all of his Tiktoks he was standing. I'm not capable of taking care of someone in a wheelchair because I have a disability that is painful and makes walking difficult. I feel bad that I feel that way and I don't know if he is mad that I didn't know. I know that he can take care of himself but I feel so overwhelmed. I don't know if I can handle living with someone in a wheelchair because I know that I can barely take care of my disability with my boyfriend's help.<br><br>I feel so bad because this is the first time that we met up and I was judgmental because I was overwhelmed. I know that I treated him badly and I feel so bad because I don't know if I can fully commit to being with him.