I just got out of a depression trap and lost over 100 pounds in 2023

I'm not expecting any sympathy or anything, just wanna share my story so other incels on here know there is a light at the end of the tunnel.<br><br>I'm 19 right now, 5ft 11 and 180 pounds. I lost 115 pounds and went from a 38 waist to a 28. I'm not a skinny legend yet, but it's been a wild ride.<br><br>In 2022 I ballooned over 300 pounds on account of not doing shit and being depressed, and I always talked shit about being fat, but I never did anything. When I was ambushed about my weight by my sister my depression hit an all time low. I coped by getting in my car and driving with no destination, and I was going close to 100 mph. I picture myself crashing and burning on the highway everyday, and it was one of the most satisfying feelings. I still thought about it even when my depression subsided. I don't feel this way now, thank god.<br><br>Fast forward to the beginning of 2023. January 2nd, I wake up at 8 am and immediately do 100 push ups. I felt so good that I repeated that process every day, including weekends. I experienced a rush that I had not felt in years, and I craved it every single day. I began to eat healthier, and the rush came even quicker. I exercised every single day and eventually began to jog 3 miles a day in the morning. I started hitting the gym and was able to bench 135. My depression levels were so low and I had so much energy that I was able to get a job.<br><br>I've kept my fitness routine for 11 months. I'm in the best shape of my life and I'm proud of myself. I don't feel like killing myself anymore, and I don't cope with threats of suicide. The first time I had sex I was in a happy mindset and not a fuck it I'ma die mindset. I've accomplished so much I was proud of myself. If you're feeling depressed, I feel your pain. Even if people don't like you, there is so much beauty in the world. I've been in your shoes and I'm not perfect. But if I can do it, so can you. It's never too late to make a change in yourself. And if you ever feel like killing yourself just know that I love and appreciate you and I wish you the best.