Why do I feel like I missed out on something as a MGTOW?

So, I never had a gf, I never went to college, I never had friends, I never went to a party. I transitioned directly from being a loner child to a loner adult. <br><br>I don't want any of that anymore. I don't want a gf. I don't want to hang out with people. I don't want to project a fake image of myself so other people would like me. I don't want to do any of that. <br><br>But why do I still feel like I missed out on something?<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>I know it's probably because of society, I was socialized to want these things. I was told that I missed out on something. But I don't give a fuck about any of that. I don't give a fuck about social perception. I don't give a fuck about society.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>I'm not lonely, I'm not sad. I'm not bitter. I don't hate women. I'm not angry. <br><br>I'm just....nothing. I feel like I'm missing something, like there's something in my life that I need to do or accomplish. But I know it's all in my head. I know there is nothing I need to do. I know I don't miss anything. I know I'm not missing out on anything. <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>It's all in my head. I know this. <br><br>I transitioned from a child to an adult. I never had any social interactions. I never had any relationships. I never had any friends. I'm a grown man with no social skills. I'm a grown man with no relationship skills. I'm a grown man that never did anything. I'm a grown man that accomplished nothing. <br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>I'm a waste of space.