I'm so proud

I've never been in a long term relationship. The last one, we were together for 2 years. She left me just before Valentine's Day because I was too big, and I've since sunk into a deep depression. I couldn't find a job, I started smoking again, I spent most of my time alone. <br><br>Yesterday, for the first time since she left, I went on a date. It was with a beautiful woman I met on POF. She's a chubbiie, with the most adorable smile and a laugh that could light up a room. We just sat down and talked, we laughed, we ate food, we had a great time. She's so smart, so funny, so beautiful. She went out of her way to put me at ease and so did I for her. I was so nervous, but she quickly put me at ease. <br><br>After dinner, we went outside on a quiet street. She asked to see my tattoos so I rolled up my sleeve and showed them off. It was warm out and I realized that I was probably sweating a lot, so I apologized and she said "you're fine". She looked so happy and I felt so happy. We walked slowly back to her car, and we talked more about everything and nothing. She was so well rounded and so funny, she was so interesting and I was so interested, I wanted to hear everything she had to say. We laughed more and I realized that I was having so much fun, I couldn't stop. <br><br>I walked her to her car, and before she opened the door, she leaned in and we kissed. I held her close and we held our lips together. It was the most intimate, most loving kiss of my life. I was trembling, I felt my eyes well up just a little. <br><br>I walked home, with the biggest smile on my face. Today, I saw her again. We went to the beach and we talked more. We cuddled up together and just sat in comfortable silence. She held my hand, I kissed her knuckles. I couldn't stop looking at her. <br><br>I'm so proud of myself. It's been a tough road, but I feel like I'm back on track, for the first time in a while. I'm so happy. I've never been more proud. <br><br>God I love chubby women.