I fucking hate doctors, I fucking hate hospitals, I fucking hate medical science, I fucking hate my body, I fucking hate my life.

I don't know what else to say. I'm fucking tired of dealing with doctors. I've been dealing with doctors for the last 6 months. I finally got answers, but it was on the fucking 25th doctor I consulted. Every single doctor up to this point lead me astray. ALL of them said it was anxiety. Fuck those assholes.<br><br>And my fucking body. I don't even know how it's possible. I have a fucking cyst that is literally killing me. Like on the verge of dying. And it only fucking existed for 6 months. It started off as the size of a pin and exponentially got bigger. It was one of those rare diseases where your body fucking kills itself. I'm so fucking pissed. I wake up one day with a fucking cyst that is killing me. Literally out of no where. I was fucking fine. I go to work one day and fucking BOOM. My body just started deteriorating. And they say doctors can't detect these things. I fucking hate that. Why don't they know these things. They're supposed to be fucking experts. And they fucking didn't know one of the most rare diseases there is. I'm fucking mad.<br><br>And the fucking hospital. I don't know what is wrong with this fucking place. They are so fucking incompetent. They couldn't even be bothered to tell me my fucking test results. At all. I had to call them fucking 4 times. They just fucking ignored me. They didn't even care. They fucking made me wait until fucking midnight to tell me my fucking diagnosis. And I'm up there with my family, and I'm fucking trying not to fucking cry.<br><br>And these fucking idiots actually fucking tried to fucking say I was fucking crazy. They literally told me that I was making it up. Like my fucking disease was all in my head. Fuck them. I fucking hate them. They didn't even fucking care.<br><br>I'm just fucking tired. I never ever thought I would have to deal with this. Never. I was one of those people who was fucking proud about fucking not going to the doctor. I was so fucking stupid. Fuck me. I fucking hate fucking doctors.