I am lonely because of my lies.

I am a 35 year old woman. I am married with a 4 year old son. I own a small business and in the real world I am doing well. I suppose. <br><br>But I am so incredibly lonely deep inside of me. I am lonely because of my lies. I am lying to strangers in the internet that they are beautiful inside and out - I am lying to myself and my family that I have a business, when I am actually working for strangers and am nothing but a common camgirl - I am lying to my husband that I enjoy his touch as much as I want him to believe, while every time I want to throw up because I am so disgusted with myself - I am lying to myself that I am happy with my choice of carreer. I am not. Deep inside I hate it. But I am too afraid to let it go and change something. I am so incredibly lonely because I am lying to myself. <br><br>I am lonely because I lie to myself. I am so incredibly, mindblowingly lonely.