just wrote the most beautiful dialogue and I want to share it with you

thank you for coming. I didn't think you would.<br><br>of course I would.<br><br>just tell me what you know.<br><br>I know nothing, yet. And yet, I know everything. You are going to keep chasing that ball forever. You are going to keep looking for answers where there are none. You are going to drive yourself mad, if you haven't already. <br><br>I'm afraid I've already gone mad.<br><br>well, then, you are just like the rest of us. and I'm afraid we cannot help you. not yet. not until you have loved someone for the rest of their lives.<br><br>if that's the case, I'll never be happy.<br><br>of course you won't. we rarely are. but that doesn't matter. for it's not about happiness. it's about feeling.<br><br>I don't want to feel this way any longer. I don't want to keep slipping. I want to be myself again. Do you know how long I've been like this?<br><br>you sound as though you hate yourself. <br><br>who doesn't?<br><br>if you keep saying that, eventually you will believe it. and then you'll never be able to come back.<br><br>if I'm not careful, I'll end up just like you: an animal, a monster, a creature.<br><br>are you afraid of death?<br><br>I'm afraid of life. I'm afraid it's meaningless.<br><br>I am not afraid of death. I am not afraid of life. and yet, I am not happy. <br><br>it's too bad. I was hoping you would be able to provide some sort of enlightenment for me. <br><br>I am no more enlightened than you. I am just like you. <br><br>I'm afraid I've already figured that out. <br><br>good. then we both know that neither of us is special.<br><br>so what do you know? you said you knew something. you led me to believe you had answers.<br><br>was I wrong?<br><br>no. I didn't mean to confuse you.<br><br>then you lied to me.<br><br>not intentionally. I just don't know how to explain it. I have been watching you for some time now.<br><br>and how long will you continue staring at me? I get nervous when people look at me for too long. <br><br>I will never stop. <br><br>can I stop you? <br><br>no. <br><br>then we both have no choice. and this is why we are here. <br><br>and what is the purpose of all this?<br><br>I have no idea. <br><br>if you don't know anything, then I don't see the point in your existence. <br><br>if that's the case, you should kill me. I've done nothing with my life, and I do not see the purpose of it.<br><br>so you admit you're useless. I'm glad we agree on something. <br><br>do you have a use for me? <br><br>not yet. <br><br>so you're waiting. <br><br>yes. and so are you. <br><br>I'm not waiting for anything. <br><br>I think you are. <br><br>you don't know what I want. <br><br>I know you hate yourself. I know you've given up on your own life. and I know you think we're the same. <br><br>if you know all this, then you know what I'm waiting for. and you know there's nothing you can tell me, nothing you can do to make me feel better. not anymore. <br><br>then I guess this is goodbye.<br><br>was this ever "hello"?<br><br>****<br>this is from an ongoing project I'm working on. I wrote it all in one go, and I'm actually really happy with how it came out. <br><br>it's a dialogue between a man and an owl. the man is in a park, contemplating suicide. the owl is in a tree. I won't get into it more than that, because that's as far as I've gotten. <br><br>I know how long I've been like this. / you sound as though you hate yourself. / who doesn't? <br><br>I just came up with that, right then, on the spot. It's a tiny piece of dialogue, but it actually made me choke up a bit. <br><br>thank you for reading :)