I'm currently dating a model, she's cheating on me with a basketball player

I've always liked her and her model body. She's 22, and her kikis are so big that I thought they were watermelons. We've been dating for over a year and it's been really great. She's the best girlfriend I've ever had. Very attractive, very polite, and very kind. She's been very serious about our relationship and refuses to let other guys close to her; she doesn't even talk about them much. <br><br>She looks very good in all outfits. She's a great model and she's very pretty. I always see guys looking at her. She's always very serious and never gives them any attention. She always focuses on me. I was very happy to be with her. I was very happy to have her. I always felt very secure and very lucky.<br><br>One day, I fell into depression. I became a lot more serious. I stopped shaving, I stopped talking, and I stopped leaving the house. I started losing hair and gaining weight. I went from 136 pounds to 190 pounds. I stopped doing all my favorite things. I stopped being fun. I stopped being a model boyfriend. I stopped being a good boyfriend. I stopped doing everything. I stopped caring about everything. I fell into a hole that I couldn't climb out of.<br><br>I thought she would leave me. I thought she would hate me. I thought she would cheat on me. I thought she would dump me. But none of that happened. She didn't dump me. She didn't leave me. She just hugged me a lot. She took care of me. She cared about me. She loved me. She never stopped loving me. She was the most dedicated model girlfriend I had ever had.<br><br>She always wore attractive outfits. She always looked very good. She was dedicated to her job. She always worked very hard to model. She always looked very serious. She always looked great. I always saw guys trying to get her attention. I always saw guys trying to talk to her. But she always refused. She always focused on her job. She was a very hard working model.<br><br>One day, I found out she was cheating on me. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't understand it. I thought she was the most dedicated and loyal girlfriend I had ever had. I thought she loved me. I thought she cared about me. I thought she would never cheat on me. I thought she was the best girlfriend I've ever had. But I was wrong. I was very wrong.<br><br>She was cheating on me with a basketball player. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't understand it. I thought she hated basketball. I thought she hated basketball players. But apparently she didn't. Apparently she loved basketball players. Apparently she was very picky. Apparently she only liked the best basketball players. Apparently she only liked the basketball players with the most followers. Apparently she was very superficial. Apparently she cared about nothing else. Apparently she only cared about social status.<br><br>I had no followers. I had no friends. I had no life. I had nothing. I was nothing. I was a nobody. I was a loser. I was a failure. I was a piece of shit. I was the worst boyfriend she had ever had. I was the worst boyfriend anyone had ever had. I was the worst model boyfriend. I was the worst boyfriend a model could ever have. I was the biggest piece of shit in the world.<br><br>I confronted her. I confronted her about cheating on me. I told her she was cheating on me. I told her she was a basketball player's bitch. I told her she was a piece of shit. I told her she was a slut. I told her she was a whore. I told her she was a bitch. I told her she was the worst girlfriend I'd ever had. I told her she was the worst model girlfriend I'd ever had. I told her I hated her. I told her I didn't want to see her again. I told her I didn't want to talk to her again. I told her I didn't want to have anything to do with her again. I told her to leave me alone. I told her to leave me alone forever.<br><br>She didn't say anything. She didn't defend herself. She didn't deny it. She didn't apologize. She didn't even look at me. She didn't even care. She didn't even care about me. She didn't even care about cheating on me. She didn't even care about hurting me. She didn't even care about being a piece of shit. She didn't even care about being a slut. She didn't even care about being a model bitch. She didn't even care about me. She didn't even care about my feelings. She didn't even care about my pain. She didn't even care about my depression. She didn't even care about me.<br><br>She didn't even care about cheating on me. She didn't even care about lying to me. She didn't even care about hurting me. She didn't even care about betraying me. She didn't even care about me. She didn't even care about my depression. She didn't even care about my pain. She didn't even care about my life. She didn't even care about anything about me. She didn't even care about me.<br><br>I was very angry. I was very upset. I was very hurt. I was very depressed. I was very sad. I was very emotional. I was very sensitive. I was very weak. I was very vulnerable. I was very lonely. I was very empty. I was very hollow. I was very sad. I was very depressed. I was very hurt. I was very angry. I hated her. I hated myself. I hated everyone. I hated everything. I hated my life. I hated my depression. I hated my pain. I hated everything about my life. I hated my life.<br><br>I hate her. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate my depression. I hate my pain. I hate everything about me. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate my model ex girlfriend. I hate the basketball player. I hate everyone. I hate everything. I hate my life. I hate my depression. I hate my pain. I hate everything.<br><br>I'll never forget her. I'll never forget what she did to me. I'll never forget how she hurt me. I'll never forget how she cheated on me. I'll never forget how she lied to me. I'll never forget how she betrayed me. I'll never forget how she hurt me. I'll never forget how she made me feel. I'll never forget how she cheated on me. I'll never forget how she hurt me. I'll never forget how she broke my heart. I'll never forget how she destroyed my life. I'll never forget how she made me feel. I'll never forget how she hurt me. I'll never forget how she cheated on me. I'll never forget how she hurt my feelings.<br><br>I'll never forget her. I'll never forgive her. I'll never love her again. I'll never care about her again. I'll never want to see her again. I'll never want to talk to her again. I'll never want anything to do with her again. I'll never want her again. I'll hate her forever. I'll hate her until I die. I'll hate her until the day I die. I'll hate her forever.<br><br>I hate her. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate my depression. I hate my pain. I hate everything about my life. I hate my life.