I have lost any hope that I ever will change into a CHAD

I am a 19 year old man that is 5'9" i have a slender, but not skinny, body with next to no muscle. I have black hair that is always a mess no matter how much i fix it. I have blue eyes that are so pale that they look white sometimes. My face is slender and long, not "chadlike" at all. I have a small nose but my chin is long. I have a small mouth and small lips but I have pretty big teeth that i am pretty self conscious about. I have a lot of facial hair but that does not help me look any better. My teeth are also pretty crooked and that also bothers me. I have tried to work out but my arms are as thin as a twig and my stomach protrudes outward because of my height and pot belly. I have tried to change my diet but that has only helped me lose 15 pounds at most. i have never been in a relationship with anyone ever, i am still a virgin, and have never had a girlfriend. i have always been self-conscious about my appearance and most of my friends are pretty average or below average looking so when i am with them i feel like a god next to them but when i am out in public and i see all these good looking people, i feel worthless and unattractive. I have never even kissed a girl before so the thought of me ever being able to hook up with anyone is a joke. i have tunnel vision for a girl who i like, i can not stop focusing on her no matter how hard i try. i have lost any hope that i have to ever become attractive.<br><br>edit: for those who are confused and are wondering why i posted this, i sometimes come on this sub because it makes me feel better to know that there are plenty of other people who are going through the same struggles as me. but it also makes me feel worse because i have no idea how most of you guys are incels, some of you seem pretty average from your pictures you have posted. and i also find it very illogical how plenty of you hate the "friend zone". if i ever had the opportunity to be in the friend zone it would be a good thing for me.