I don't understand. Everyone can't possibly be like this.

I'm 25, I don't know, maybe everyone needs to grow out of this shit, but I don't see it happening.<br><br><br>I'm a really friendly, approachable person, I don't like people when they are being hostile or have bad intentions, and I like to avoid them..<br><br><br>Most of my friends had really bad intentions.<br><br><br>I'm saying this because I recently saw some crazy shit.<br><br><br>I've been hanging out with this one girl for the past 2-3 months. She had a baby almost a year ago, 3 years younger than me. A lot of people in my town know each other, she's a friend of a friend. I really liked her, she's nice, approachable, I like her.<br><br><br>We would hang out, go to the cafe, and she would talk about her life and her baby, I liked hearing it, I felt like she just needed someone to talk to.<br><br><br>She had a friend that, when she slept, her friend would babysit her baby and she would do the same. So they would switch: sometimes her friend would keep the baby in her care, sometimes the baby would be with her. <br><br><br>They would sometimes go out, or meet up, or when she visited her mom, the baby would be with her friend and vice versa. <br><br><br>I think her friend slept at her house once or twice - I remember her saying that the baby slept in her care, and when she came home, she would give him to her mom for a few days. <br><br><br>That's what happened this time. The baby slept at her friend's house, and when we met, she said the baby's mom hasn't seen him in 2 days, and she really missed him. So she was gonna go see her mom the next day and spend some time with her baby. <br><br><br>That evening, her friend called and said the baby got sick and was in the hospital. She said she could pick him up in the morning. <br><br><br>That night I went home really worried.<br><br><br>The next day I called her and asked what had happened. She told me that the baby had swelled up, but she was gonna go pick him up that afternoon. <br><br><br>Then in 3 days I called her again and asked if she had talked to her mom. She said that she couldn't because her mom was saying that she had nothing to give him, that she was in great pain and she wasn't gonna talk to her mom for a week because she was really mad. <br><br><br>I really didn't understand. I told her I was gonna pick her up and we went to the hospital, and the baby wasn't there, he was dead. <br><br><br>She told me she knew that he was in the hospital. She was telling me the truth. <br><br><br>I, myself, really didn't understand what was happening. I couldn't understand why she had lied to me like that. <br><br><br>I told her to be honest and tell me what happened. She said that her friend had called her saying that her baby had swelled and fallen over, had swelled up, and was dead. She said she couldn't see him and had called her mom the day before, but she said that she didn't know anything. <br><br><br>I've had really bad experiences with people, but she really didn't seem like a bad person. But she lied to me. She had lied to me the entire time. <br><br><br>I told her I couldn't stay friends with her because I wouldn't be able to trust anyone like that again.<br><br><br>I know that she's a terrible person, but I've had really bad experiences with people. I, myself, had swelled because of an infection. I know that the pain is crazy, and that I couldn't do anything. I couldn't understand why she had lied to me like that. I would have understood if she had told me that her baby was dead.<br><br><br>I'm, myself, feeling really crazy, I don't know what to do or think or feel. I, myself, had bad experiences with the people in my life, but I couldn't understand why she had lied.<br><br><br>I know that I'm not the bad one, I know that she's the one who messed up, but I couldn't stop thinking about what had happened.<br><br><br>I couldn't do anything. I couldn't help anyone. I couldn't understand why she had lied to me like that.<br><br><br>I, myself, really can't understand.