i want to have a baby so bad

i want a baby. i want to be a mother. i want to feel life grow in my body and my heart. i want to birth a beautiful little person and shape their life and personality, and watch them grow into an amazing adult. i want to love and nurture and have a new best friend and baby<br><br>i know i’m not ready. i’m too young, i don’t have the money, i live in a bedroom in my parents house. but i want it so bad. it’s all i can think about. i want a healthy pregnancy, i want a healthy baby, i want to breast feed, i want to be a good mother. i want everything that comes with having a child. i want to enjoy my life, i want to do the things i want to do, but i also want to have a baby. <br><br>i just feel myself slowly falling apart. i want to have a baby so much. i want to be a mother. i just want to nurture others and love them and have my own life. i want to bring a new life into this world. i want to have a child.