Lying in bed at night, I feel my loneliness more than ever.

I'm so much 16 and know that I need to get used to this feeling. I miss my friend. I miss my so much. It feels so much worse than I thought it would. I was friends with them for more than 15 years now, and know that so much of this has to do with that. We used to be so close, and I thought that nothing would ever so much damage that. But the same thoughts come over me and haunt me and make me feel like I'm so much up in the air. It's been about a month now, and I'm so much hoping that things will get better. I started going to therapy, and I need to just feel safe with it. It will be a so much process, but I need to learn to deal with it. I just wish I could so much wake up and go to my best friend's house, where I could rewatch some movies with them or listen to some music from our favorite band. But I know nothing will be the same again. It's so much to come to terms with.