I am just so unbelievably tired of everything

The title basically says it. I am not sure if this makes any sense or who would read it but I need to get some stuff out of my head. I have absolutely no friends, not a single one. Nor have I ever had any. I don't know what it feels like to be hugged, kissed, have sex or be in a relationship. No one has ever told me they loved me or cared for me. I've never ventured more than 30km from the small town where I was born. I have no motivation or interest to do anything. I am physically and mentally unfit, I have back problems because of my posture and I am overwhelmed because I know I have to do something to change this. The problem is that I am so tired of everything. I have no will to live, everything feels meaningless and I have no idea what to do. I have no one to talk to. I am overwhelmed because I have to carry this burden alone and I am not strong enough for it. I do not know how I can cope with it because I have not been given the emotional tools to do so because I was ignored and left alone for most of my life. I am tired of being alone, tired of not having a partner/spouse, tired of everything and I do not know how to change this. That's why I am writing this, because I have nobody to talk to. So I guess it's time to get used to the fact that I will become one of the old lonely men who die and not a single person shows up to their funeral.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Edit: I read through every comment and I am going to write what I have thought about it. I do not like talking about my problems because I feel like I am burdening others with them. The problem is that I've started to feel like I am in my way. So I am going to discuss this with a therapist, lay my options out on the table, think about what I can change and take the first steps.