My parents would rather I was dead than a loser

My (divorced) parents are both very wealthy and successful, with my mum being the more traditionally attractive one. I am an underachieving loser by comparison.<br><br>I was walking past her house today and she saw me. She invited me in and made me a cup of tea, pretending that she was happy to see me. She was lying though - she fucking hates me, and would probably rather I was dead than a loser. I feel so ashamed of myself it's unreal.