i’m jealous of the way he thinks of her in his darkest moments

i know in reality it's probably nothing like that at all, but i wanna be the person in his mind he comes to n a desperate moment. i wanna be the person he calls when he feels like he wants to drink again or he wants to die. i wanna be the person he feels safe enough speaking to about his inner turmoil. i wanna be the one who is the each of his demons. i wanna be able to be his safety net. i wanna be the one he can be vulnerable with.