I don't even want to be here right now

I have 2 kids with a 3rd on the way and I'm not sure if I believe in incarnation or not but I don't even want to be here but sadly my children count on me to be present to provide for them , here are some reasons I don't even want to be here:<br><br><br>1. The money system and having to work<br>2. I struggle with mental health and I'm sick of the mental health system treating me like a lab rat but sadly it's even worse in my country and I don't have enough money to leave<br>3. I feel like my purpose goes beyond this current life but I'm stuck in this body and I want to help as many people as possible but my mental health is holding me back <br>4. The leaders of the world don't care about the people and I feel like the rich get richer and the poor get poorer<br><br>So I want to be rich for 3 reasons, 1. I want to help as many people as possible and make a positive impact in this world and I can't do that with no money , 2. I don't want to feel like I'm struggling all the time, I want to enjoy life and stop worrying about money , 3. I want to build this community where it's basically free to live and anyone can join and I want to go around the world and fix the damage that has been done by rich corporations<br>I've got a lot more things I want to say and I know my English is not perfect but I'm from another country and I've been to therapy and they said that my mental health is because of lack of money and I'm sick of being this way and I just want to be happy , I'm trying to attract money into my life, I put out the energy to the universe and I'm trying to be positive<br>I've got a P.E.i and I'm trying to fill it up as much as I can, I'm willing to work in 3 jobs to make ends meet even if I don't feel good , I'm sick of feeling like this and I have to change but I don't know where to start or how to get out of this situation<br>Please share your experience here if you've gone through the same thing as me and I'm hoping there is hope for me to change my situation