I (27f) found my husband (35m) streaming our sex tape online

Throwaway because I don't want anyone knowing my personal business.<br><br><br>My husband and I have been together for five years and married for one. We also have a one-year-old daughter together. <br><br>Last night I was out with my best friend having a few drinks and she was joking about how we should give it a try and get on those cam sites and see what kind of freaks we can find and get to do weird stuff on cam. I know we're adults and can do what we want but it was just a joke and we were just making fun of the type of people that we saw and I was joking that my husband would never agree and she kept pressing me saying that I should be able to do what I want in my marriage and that I shouldn't let my husband hold me back. I told her that I don't think I'm comfortable with it and that it's not something that I'm interested in and it's also not something that my husband would be comfortable with.<br><br>Since my friend kept pressing me, I said "fine" and I logged onto the first site that popped up in my browser and when I clicked on a live stream there was a couple having sex with a glass dildo and doing all sorts of freaky stuff and I was like "wow". I just couldn't believe that there were people out there that do this and that there's such a large audience for this type of thing, so I kept clicking and I probably looked at four or five different streams before I logged out and left it alone, it was just so crazy to me.<br><br>I went home and went to bed without thinking much of it until this morning when I turned on my laptop and I got a notification from that site saying that I had a message from someone. I logged in and someone had sent me a friend request, which was wild. So then I logged out and went on with my day. I didn't think much of it, I just thought it was funny that I had logged onto one of these sites and that it was so easy to connect with someone so quickly.<br><br>Again, this was just a joke and I wasn't serious about any of it, it's just something that we were doing for fun, it's not something that I was serious about doing in the first place.<br><br>I logged onto that site again later today, just out of curiosity to see who else I could find doing this, and I was looking through and I saw a username that was my husband's gamertag from high school with my first name attached to the end of it. I clicked on it and it took me to his profile, which had a picture of the two of us taken on our wedding day. I was shocked and didn't know what to think, so I just clicked on his videos to try to figure out what was going on and what I saw floored me.<br><br>Since I was so confused, I looked through the comments and I saw my husband talking to people and it was just so weird. He had comments on his video saying things like "hope you share pics of your wife" and "can't wait to see more" and my husband replying back to them saying "definitely will" and "not now but soon". Seeing this just made me feel sick, I was so confused and I didn't know what to do. It just made me feel so violated and disrespected, it was like a slap in my face. It just totally caught me off guard.<br><br>I then saw that the video was posted today but it was an old video, I'm sure it was from a couple years ago, because the hair style that I had in the video wasn't something that I had now. I'm positive that it was a video that he had recorded and saved, so he uploaded it today but it was from our past, he had recorded us having sex and saved it to upload and share it with people that he didn't even know. <br><br>I don't know what to do, I just feel so disgusted and betrayed and I'm not sure of what to say or do, I'm so confused. I just wanted to come here and talk about it. I don't even know how to approach the subject with him but I want to hear your thoughts on the situation.<br><br><br>Edit: Holy shit, I didn't expect this post to blow up this much. Thank you all for the support and the advice, it means so much to me. I'm shocked at the amount of people that have said that they used to do this with their husband and how common it is, it's just something that I would never think of doing without talking to my other half but hey, now I know. I'll post an update as soon as I can.<br><br>Edit 2: I just wanted to say thank you so much for all the support and love, it really means so much to me and I'm so glad that I came here to talk about this. Right now I'm just trying to focus on myself and my happiness, I'm not really sure what's going to happen in the future but I'm just taking things day by day and doing my best to keep a positive attitude and try to focus on other things than the negativity and betrayal that I'm feeling.<br><br>I want to clear up a few things before I stop getting on my phone for the night, the first being that I did indeed check his dropbox account, and yes, there are other videos of us having sex that he has saved. I don't know how many but I saw 3 different videos, one was the one that he had posted online but the other two were in his files. <br><br>When I looked at the comments of that video and it was all those people asking for more pics and videos it just made me sick, it was just so weird and I felt violated, it's just something that I would never agree to and I don't even know how many other videos he has saved and of how many other "private" moments that he's saved, it just makes me sick to my stomach.<br><br>I also want to say that I'm not trying to bash or blame anyone that's done this, I'm sorry if I made those kinds of comments or if that's what some people got from my post, it's just something that I've never heard of and I don't agree with it and it makes me feel disrespected and sick, that's all.<br><br>Thank you all again for the love and support, it really means a lot.<br><br><br>Edit 3: I've removed all of my comments except for one and I'm no longer using this throwaway, I will not be responding to any comments and I will not be posting an update. I'm no longer looking at the comments, I'm just trying to focus on my own happiness and the well being of my daughter, that's my priority. Thank you all for your advice and the support, I appreciate it.<br><br><br>Edit 4: I just want to say that I now have a lawyer and my daughter and I are receiving the proper help and resources that we need. Thank you all for your support, it really means so much to me.