I give 10$ to my homeless neighbors every time I smoke weed.

I donate 10$ to my homeless neighbors every time I feel like smoking weed. So far I give 10$ every day. I've been doing it for 3 weeks now. I've donated a total of 300$. I don't need weed and it's illegal here. 10$ here can buy a full meal. I've been trying to quit weed for years. Finally I'm off it and I feel proud and confident. I also suffered from depression for 10 years. Recently I got better after I moved to a new house with a garden full of trees and plants. I'm shocked at how much my mental health has improved over the last 2 months. I thought I'd be depressed FOREVER.<br><br>The magic I've been doing these last 2 months has been working. 1) I wrote down all the things I'm grateful for 2) I did moon water ceremony 3) I'm working on shadow work 4) I give 10$ to a homeless neighbor whenever I feel like smoking weed. 5) I talk to my shadow and comfort it and tell it everything will be okay.<br><br>I didn't even think I was doing magic but I was. I will continue to my shadow work and work on negative thoughts and behaviors and be more present. I honestly feel so proud of myself I did it!! I was so stubborn and proud my whole life I thought I'd never get over my depression it's been weighing on me my whole life. 10 years I've been suffering. Finally I feel better and I'm so proud of myself and grateful.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Edit: To anyone asking my location, I am in Mexico and I live in a touristy town with a lot of homeless immigrants and a lot of homeless mentally ill people.<br><br>To anyone who says giving homeless people money is bad, I've done a lot of research so I know what I'm doing here.<br><br>To anyone asking why I smoke weed, I've been sober for 3 weeks so far. I used to smoke weed to help with my depression and anxiety. I have suffered severe depression for 10 years. Yes I smoked too much and suffered severe paranoia attacks. But smoking too much is different than smoking 1/4 joint a day and feeling better.<br><br>I've tried therapy and it didn't work for me. In fact I suffered extreme depression after I went to therapy. I prefer to do my own inner work and I work with my shadow and journal about my trauma. I also suffered severe trauma when I went to therapy.<br><br>I am very intelligent I've done a lot of research and I'm doing shadow work, mirror work, and journaling, and giving to charity, and it's working for me.<br><br>I give homeless people money but I give them food instead if I can find them food.<br><br>If you think I'm wrong for smoking weed and donating, you can go and watch some videos on YouTube from licensed therapists who say it's okay to smoke weed to help with depression and anxiety.<br><br>To anyone who says it's wrong of me to be proud of myself because I've overcome depression and addiction, go watch videos on YouTube on positive affirmations, it works!! Positive affirmations help so much and you can get off anti depressants and improve your mental health and confidence.<br><br>I don't care if anyone here thinks I'm doing the wrong thing. I know I'm doing the right thing and I feel good and proud of myself and I've improved my mental health and overcome depression and I've been doing a lot of research and I know what I'm doing.<br><br>To anyone who says I should give to a homeless shelter, I tried giving to a homeless shelter before and they told me they only take in homeless people who don't drink or do drugs. So I give to homeless people on the streets instead.<br><br>I'm a homeless immigrant myself here in Mexico. I don't have much money and I feel for them because I've been homeless before too.