I’m done with psychedelics

I’ve been doing psychedelics for years. Over 80 trips across psilocybin, lsd, dmt. Two years ago I had an incredibly profound, life changing trip. It was the most intense and clear trip I’ve ever had. I felt the most comfortable and in touch with my inner self I’ve ever been. I laughed so hard I cried. I had profound realizations. I finally understood the concept of ego death. <br><br>And nothing has been the same ever since. Every time I trip now, I’m stuck in the feeling of loss and longing for that feeling of clarity and lucidity I received two years ago. I lost focus on the present moment and constantly yearn to go back to that moment. I feel like no matter how hard I try, I’ll never get back to that feeling. I simply lost focus on the present moment and got trapped in the dream of reliving that moment, to the point where psychedelics have been hurting me more than they’ve been helping me.<br><br>I will always be grateful for what psychedelics have done for me. I have grown so much as a person, I learned so much about myself, I was able to confront and let go of traumas and feel a sense of healing like no other. It’s sad to say goodbye, but here I am.