I just got out of a crying fit over how sad I am for my gender

I hate how I will never be taken seriously in my chosen field, I will always be undermined and doubted. I hate how I am constantly measuring every inch of my life to keep me safe, I hate how I am so vigilant even in my own home. I hate how emotionally I am in a constant state of hyperarousal. I hate how I am over-sexualized and fetishized and dehumanized for being trans. I hate how I will never be trusted, ever. I hate how I keep getting told to "get over it" I hate how nobody takes me seriously because I am a woman. <br><br>I may never be trusted, I may never be seen as equal, I will never have my life valued. I fucking hate this, I hate how emotional I am, I hate how I am never good enough, I just hate everything.