I will become a loner... no way...

I am 39, male. I used to think that I will not become a hermit... my best mate got married 2 years ago, then had a baby 1 year ago. But I still thought that I will not become a loner. I am not going to get married, I am not going to get a kid to become a hermit... I can be a hermit right away, I am a hermit already. I have been a loner ever since. I can not make new friends, I can not find a person I can be close to.<br><br>As I am getting older I am realizing that my first friend, my childhood best friend and my college friends are the ones I will be calling a friend for the rest of my life... they are already fading away and right now my only friend is my child.<br><br>Right now I am living alone, I have not a single person to talk to except my son. I think I will die alone, I will be anonymous in my death. There will be no one around me crying, no one will be devastated by my death, no one will remember my birthday after I am gone...<br><br>I think there is nothing wrong with being a hermit, there is no need to be ashamed of being a loner. But right now I am feeling so sad, I am missing people, I am missing my childhood friends, I am missing a dad...<br><br>I hope this will pass, I hope I will not become a loner... no way...