My wife of 22 years has come out as gay

We had sex once or twice a year for the last five years and I thought this was because of age. We have been together for 32 years. I am 52 and she is 55. She orgasmed every time we had sex.<br><br>A couple of months ago she asked me if I would be okay with her getting a pussy ring (jewelry with a large gem stone that goes inside the vagina and sticks out of the vagina, she wanted to feel it when we had sex). I thought this was strange but it was inexpensive and kind of fun.<br><br>Then there were hints she wanted to try anal beads, first I buy a small set, then she wants larger beads, then she wanted beads that vibrate. I buy a high quality set. I noticed the beads left a residue on my penis. Our daughters are out of the house and live with their own families.<br><br>One day I put on a t-shirt that she had left in the washing machine. In the pocket was a receipt from a store I have never heard of. I looked this up and it was a store that sells sex toys. I pulled up the receipt and it was for a large double ended dildo. I was shocked.<br><br>I confronted her and she told me the truth. She is gay and has been gay her entire life. For years she wanted me to buy her toys but I would not because I was a conservative Christian. She says that I was selfish and she hid this dildo under the bed for a day or two before washing it. She said she loves me but I think this is a lie. She said she has been with women for years and even had a long term relationship with a couple.<br><br>I have filed for divorce, the kids are shocked, and the grandkids are too young to understand. I am just so hurt that she lied and I feel I was living a lie. I just feel so empty and worthless.