I bought a $1000 purse and I feel like a bitch

I don’t normally by expensive things. I’m pretty frugal and I save for everything I buy. Today I went shopping for a purse with a friend and bought a $1000 purse. When I looked at the price tag I began to hyperventilate and feel sick. I didn’t grow up with a lot of money, I remember what it’s like to have your power cut off because you can’t afford to pay your bills. I felt guilty buying it, even though I can afford it, I kept thinking about how much bills that would pay and how long it would take to earn that money if I were making minimum wage. <br><br>I wear my wealth well and nobody would think I make what I make by looking at me. I don’t dress flashy, I don’t have nice cars, and I don’t have a big house. I am by no means wealthy, and I don’t have disposable income. This was a huge purchase for me, and I can’t get over it. I keep thinking that I’m being a bitch and I should return it. <br><br>I grew up in the middle class, my parents had good jobs, but we didn’t have a lot left over at the end of the month. They paid for everything I needed, but not a lot of what I wanted. My dad always told me if I wanted something more than necessities, it’s my job to pay for it. So I worked, and I worked my ass off. Minimum wage jobs, babysitting, tutoring, cleaning houses, anything I could do to make extra money. <br><br>I’m a nurse practitioner now. I make a lot of money, a lot more than I ever thought I’d make. I remember being happy making $15 an hour as a phlebotomist. Now I make more than my parents do/did and I’m struggling to adapt to it, I guess. <br><br>I make a good income, but I have a lot of expenses and student loans, and I’m a single mom with a child with disabilities so I don’t really have a lot of disposable income. I’m by no means doing poorly, I can afford everything I need and a couple things I want, but I don’t want to ever feel like I’m being irresponsible with my money.<br><br>I feel like such a bitch for buying something so expensive, and my brain is just going crazy with it. I’m a good person, I donate to charities, volunteer, and work in healthcare to help people, and somehow I’m abad person for buying a handbag. <br><br>I feel ungrateful asking anyone for help, because I’m so much better off than I was. My parents both grew up in extreme poverty and what I grew up with is upper class to them. I feel like I’m a bitch even thinking about this, and I just don’t know what to do.