I'm sorry for sleeping with your boyfriend.

My mom pushed me into cheerleading. I wasn't interested, but she said it'd be a great way to get some exercise. I love acrobatics, gymnastics is so much fun. I tried out for cheerleading at school and I got in. I was going to quit as soon as the commitments were over, but I didn't. I met the love of my life when I was 15. I was at my first proper party with him and I had never had a sip of alcohol until that day. We got so drunk, when we had sex I had no idea what I was doing at the time. We were drunk. I didn't have my phone with me. We had to get home. We stepped outside and it was raining. I got so wet. <br><br>We had so much fun sleeping together. He'd give me rides home from school when he could. We used to all go to the mall when we had days off school. There was this big mall that had a proper cinema. There was a shop next to the cinema that was deserted. We used to have sex in there when we had the time. It was so much fun. <br><br>He was so big and he used to love pulling my hair from behind while he was inside me. We had to stop having sex in the car because I got pregnant. I lost the baby. It was a miscarriage. I didn't see him much after that. He had a different car and it was bigger. He used to give me rides still. I'd have to stop him from going inside me. He wasn't a proper boyfriend. I had a lot of fun with him. I was so sorry that we couldn't have sex anymore. <br><br>I got pregnant again at 17. I gave birth to my daughter. She was so beautiful. Her father helped me raise her. We had to stop having sex again. I didn't mind when I had my daughter. I didn't see him much. I still got rides from him. I didn't see him for months. There was a party and I got so drunk. We had sex again. My daughter was one years old. She was so cute. <br><br>We had sex again a few times. I had to stop him from going inside me. I was so sorry. I missed him sleeping with me all the time. I had a daughter to look after. He wanted to break up with me. I didn't want him to. <br><br>I went back to school. There was a new student. He walked into the classroom with the principal. He was handsome. He was from America. He moved to Canada. I was jealous of my former classmates as they were sleeping with him. I didn't like that. I was angry at him. I wanted to sleep with him too. <br><br>I used to walk around the mall by myself. I used to cry when I had my period. I used to go to the bathroom and look for spare tampons all the time. I used to ask other girls if they had spare tampons. I was so glad when I had my period at home and I had tampons for myself. I couldn't imagine being at school and not having tampons. It was so important for me to have them. <br><br>I got pregnant again at 19. My daughter was two. She was beautiful. I was so glad. I stopped sleeping with my baby's father. I lost this baby too. I was so sad. I lost two babies. I was so sorry. <br><br>I got pregnant again at 20. This time I didn't lose the baby. My daughter was three. I gave birth to my daughter when I was 21. I had two daughters. I used to cry about losing my babies. I still love them. I'm sorry that I lost them. My proper boyfriend was at the birth of my two daughters. He was so happy. We didn't sleep together anymore. We used to all go to the mall still. He used to take my two daughters to the cinema. I'd sit next to them. He used to put his arm around me. <br><br>I'm 28 now. He's 31. I'm married to him. We used to sleep together all the time when I was married to him. My daughters used to go to school. They used to love going to school. They love their dad. He used to walk them to school. <br><br>I'm sorry for sleeping with your boyfriend. I didn't know when I first met him that he had a girlfriend. I was so sorry when I found out. I didn't know when I first met him. I feel so bad. She used to cry all the time. She used to say "I know you used to sleep with my boyfriend". I didn't know. I used to feel so bad. I'm sorry. I still feel bad. I'm sorry all the time. <br><br>My proper boyfriend passed away in August. I'm so sad. I'm so sorry. My daughters miss him so much. They used to cry all the time. I'm sorry. I feel so bad at the same time. I miss him so much. I'm glad we got married. I used to ask him all the time if he wanted to break up with me. I used to ask when we were proper boyfriend and girlfriend. I used to ask all the time when I was married to him. He used to laugh all the time. <br><br>He used to laugh all the time. I'm sorry that I couldn't see him laugh anymore. I'm so sorry for everything. I used to cry about losing my babies. I know how you feel. I'm sorry. I still feel bad about when I was 15. I feel so bad. I'm sorry that I didn't know that he had a girlfriend. I didn't know. I'm sorry. I still feel bad.