I'm horribly lonely and I hate to admit it

Look, I know I should have friends and real relationships and not have to admit to this. But I guess I'm not one of those people who have that.<br><br>I'm lonely to the point where I'm literally shaking and crying. I'm trying to make a friend of a neighbor and at least have someone to talk to but he's not very talkative himself.<br><br>I called my mom crying to complain to her about it. I feel useless to my kids. I feel useless to everyone.<br><br>Edit: I didn't expect so many comments. Thank you for trying to help.<br><br>Look, I know I can go out and make friends. But it's hard when many have passed me by already. Not one person has asked how was your day and actually waited for a response. No one has asked to hang out. I'm on the outside of social circles and it's incredibly hard to break in when you're already on the outside. I feel like it's me only.<br><br>My son just poked his head in the room and asked if I was okay.