I showed my gf a video of me jerking off

We've been dating for 3 years. I love her so much, and we have a great relationship. I don't think she's ever showed much interest in sex, she doesn't initiate, and when i do, she's not really enthusiastic. I know she's into women, so much so that my gf told me she's not 100% straight. I don't think she's 100% gay though because she told me that she's attracted to me. <br><br>Anyway i thought she might be more into sex if it was a different kind of sex, so i asked her what she wanted to try. She said she didn't know and wasn't really into anything sexual. She just wasn't sure. She also said that she's not comfortable doing much, and she wouldn't want to do much, even if she was into it. I asked her why she wasn't comfortable with sex, and she said she didn't know. I live with her btw. We've lived together for 2 years. <br><br>I didn't know what to do. I thought about showing her porn. I thought maybe she would see something she liked. I didn't want to just randomly show her porn though bc i know a lot of porn is problematic. I felt that if i did that i might end up accidentally showing her some porn that's problematic, and she'd be upset about that. So instead, i showed her a video of me. I recorded myself masturbating, and showed her the video. <br><br>She wasn't into it. She was grossed out actually. I asked her what she was uncomfortable with, and she said everything. I was confused. There wasn't much she could see in the video, and there was nothing problematic about it. I live with her, so she's seen me naked, and has seen me ejaculate. I don't know what the problem was. <br><br>It's important to note that she says she is attracted to me. She also showed me a video of herself masturbating after i showed her the video of me. She showed me the video before i even asked her if she wanted to show me one. I didn't expect her to show me a video of herself, and i was surprised when she did. I think she showed me the video because she thought i would want to see it, and she thought she might like watching videos of masturbating. <br><br>I think she thought i would be into it, but i wasn't. I didn't like watching it at all. It made me uncomfortable. I don't know why. I felt weird watching her. I think it's bc when i think of her, i don't think of sex. I don't think of sex when i look at her. She's a smart woman, and a great artist. She's showed me lots of things she's made. She painted, drew, and made many other things. I love her so much. I think that's why it made me uncomfortable. I love her, and i don't think of her sexually. <br><br>I don't know what she thinks of me. I think she might think of me sexually. I don't think she would care that i don't think of her sexually. I don't think she would want me to think of her sexually. I don't think she cares if i think of her sexually or not. Do you think she thinks of me sexually?