Why do men get to retire from relationships?

I’m 43 and my partner is 42. I was always the breadwinner in my relationship and I could ask my partner to be with me whenever I wanted. I know this is my fault for not insisting I have my own time to focus on my career but I loved my partner and whatever he needed. He never cared about my needs. I made my career my entire world for my partner.<br><br>I just ask him, “Why do men get to retire from relationships? Why do I have to be the one to make sure that you are happy when you did that for me for the last 18 years?” He made me cry with the response he gave me by saying, “I’m done, you can’t make me happy anymore. I don’t have a reason to be in this relationship anymore. You are not what I want anymore.” I can’t even work because I have been crying all day. I can’t sleep because I don’t know how to sleep in the same bed without him in it. Even though he was not the most loving man, he was my partner and my only love. He is the only man I ever got to love. I don’t want to be alone anymore. I want to be happy again.