Would be nice to feel wanted

I just put on a beautiful sundress and covered myself in perfume. I wore a cute red bow in my hair. I put on all my jewelry. I spent like an hour doing my hair. I did my makeup and put on lipstick. I put on heels. I was so excited to go to school today. <br><br>I walked to school and feel so flat. Guys don’t talk to me anymore. I don’t know why. I went up to the cafeteria at school and it was like I was invisible. I sat down at an empty table and was ignored. I feel like I don’t matter in any way to anyone. <br><br>I just feel like crying.<br><br>My waist is a bit bigger now then it was. It is 25 inches now. My hips are wider. I feel like that is what it is, I feel like I am rejected for being a little chubbier. <br><br>I am going to go home and eat. I don’t want to be here anymore.