I’ve got a problem with money

There’s a problem in my life, and it’s something I’ve been aware of for a while. I’ve always been under the illusion that it’s somehow ok or even valuable, but I’m 12 steps away from not believing it anymore. I’ve grown to realize that money is a problem in my life.<br><br>There are 12 steps to becoming free from money but I’m still on the first step - and if I’m being honest, I’m not sure if I’m ready to move on to the second.<br><br>I always thought that if I was frugal, then I wasn’t doing anything wrong. Then I realized that if I’m frugal, then I’m a part of the problem that I’m complaining about. <br><br>I thought that if I’m frugal, then I don’t have to think about money anymore. But I’ve realized that having $100 in my wallet for the weekend is just as much of a problem as only having $10 in my wallet for the weekend.<br><br>My partner keeps telling me that I’m getting more materialistic but in reality, I think I’m becoming less materialistic but more aware of how I’m being screwed by my company and government. If I’m being screwed then I’m going to hit back, and the only way I can is through money. So maybe I’m becoming more materialistic, but I feel like it’s my only way of not being screwed. <br><br>I’m going to buy a truck tomorrow and then I’ll be even more screwed by work. And yet I’m excited to be more screwed. Money - it’s a problem.