I was high for most of my visits with my therapist.

I had a lot on my mind and really needed to talk to a therapist so I got one last year. Before my first visit I smoked some weed (not much) just to help me relax, but it hit me hard just as I was about to head out the door. I thought fuck it at this point, there was no way I could get back to my room in time to sober up. So I went stoned and my therapist didn't seem to notice. I could easily talk about my problems so I thought why not. <br><br>After that first visit, I would smoke weed every time I would see her and she never noticed. Now I know this is wrong. It could have messed up my progress and makes me feel like a liar. I could have easily just told her the truth but I didn't want to look like a bad kid so I thought fuck it, it's not a big deal. She was helping me with my problems and I felt good, so why stop smoking weed? It's not like she could tell that I was high.<br><br>I've never told anyone this and it makes me feel bad.