My husband (M41) is addicted to sexting. How do I (F40) get past this?

I’ll be as brief as I can. We’ve been married for 20 years and have 3 kids, all teens. About a year ago, I discovered that my husband was sexting with a girl on kik. I discovered this on his laptop, as I was looking for something on google maps. This was a girl I didn’t know. I confronted him and he admitted he was sexting her. I told him this was cheating and that I wanted to know how long this had been going on. I know he texted me at work for pictures, but the sexting was new. <br><br>He swears it was only for a week or two. He showed me screenshots. She messaged him first, and he swears he didn’t know of her age but he said she looked “mature”. He actually sent her a dick pic. I am still livid about that. I don’t know if he actually came clean with everything, but I just know that this is a new boundary. <br><br>He deleted the app and let me set up his phone to be monitored. I have access to everything now and we’ve been to couples counseling. Things seemed okay. During counseling, I was able to bring up suggestive stuff he did (requested a bj while I was sick, sexting with me at work, etc) and it turns out a lot of it is a turn off for me. I just now know because I have words for it. <br><br>Anyway, he showed me his phone to show me his texts with his friends and I see a text from a number and the girl is sending him a nude. I kid you not. I was fucked up thinking of that girl getting naked, sending him a picture of her vagina. I didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to accuse. I went home and checked his call and text logs from our carrier and saw he had an 18 minute call in the afternoon. I confronted him again and he admitted he was sexting her again. <br><br>He said she was just sending him a picture and he didn’t ask for it. He said he “hung up” on her when he figured out who it was. I don’t know if he’s lying. But he’s been acting strange, so I think he might be. <br><br>I feel like I should just leave him. But he says he’s addicted and wants professional help. I am so angry and hurt. I don’t know what to do now. I’m going back to counseling, but I don’t even know if I want to try anymore.