I can't believe I fell for it

I'm not even 30 yet. I've never been in a relationship. I was born in the 90s and grew up with the concept of third wave feminism. I was told by everyone that I just need to wait for the right woman to come along. That I just need to be confident, and that if I treat a woman with respect, she will always appreciate me. I was also told that if I'm a good person, I will attract a good woman who will be loyal to me. I gave my all to women. I was there for them. I was a good friend. But every time I tried talking to a woman, I was rejected. I was an "amazing" person, but I just wasn't "hot" enough. <br><br>Last night I drank a little too much and started up a conversation with a woman where I work. I showed her pictures of myself when I was in shape. Back when I still had hair. I told her about all the good things I've done for other people. I showed her my degree. And you know what? She still giggled and gave me an "Ew, no I don't date people like you." <br><br>A man can be a saint. He can put his life on the line for his country. He can be a hard worker. He can be kind. But if he's not good looking, he will be alone. I'm not even ugly. I'm just average. I still get laid. I still have sex. But I want a partner. I want someone to love me. But no matter how much I try, no matter how much I better myself, I will always be alone. A man is nothing without a pretty face. A man's achievements, no matter how great they are, pale in comparison to how he looks. <br><br>I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. And I'm okay with that. I've accepted it. I've given my all to women. And they have all rejected me. I don't owe women anything. I owe nothing to the society that says there is something wrong with me. And so, I will withdraw from society. I will not date. I will not marry. I will not have children. I will not help others. I will not volunteer. I will work and live for myself. I won't even watch out for myself on the road. I will drink and drive. I will risk my life. Because I am nothing more than a rat in this society. I don't owe anyone anything. I will live for myself. I will die for myself. No one else will do anything for me.