Giving birth is the worst day of my life, and I grew up in poverty, had cancer, and had an addict as a father.

Hi, I'm a mom to a healthy, 3-month-old girl<br><br>Giving birth to her was the worst day of my life. I screamed for hours, begging to just die. I couldn't walk for months, and I spent 4 months in mental pain and physical pain, not sleeping more than 2 hours a night.<br><br>I grew up in poverty. My father was an addict, and when I was 5, he committed suicide. My mother had arthritis so badly, she had trouble walking and holding anything, including a baby bottle. She worked 60 hr shifts just to provide food and shelter for us, but she was never home. When I was 14, she was diagnosed with liver and stomach cancer. I never went to high school. After school, I'd go home and care for my mother, including bathing, feeding, caring for her like she cared for me when I was a little girl. I was just a teenager. She passed away when I was 16.<br><br>I've worked my entire life. At 19, I went to college and got a degree, and at 23, I got my masters. Life got marginally better. At 28, I had a child. She's healthy, and I love her, but giving birth to her was the worst day of my life.<br><br>I was in labour for 55 hours, and I screamed for 25. I begged to die, begged for my own hysterectomy, begged to never have children again. I kept telling them to give me drugs, but they refused to give me more drugs because they didn't want to hurt the baby. I asked them to cut me open, do a C-section, but they said the baby was already on its way. My baby got stuck in the birth canal for over 2 hours, and I had no strength left to push. They had to cut my vagina and sew it afterwards, as it was a fourth degree tear. When my baby came out, they put her on my chest for a few seconds, and then I passed out. When I came to, she was in my arms, also passed out. I looked at her, and felt a feeling of relief that I had never felt before. She was mine. We went home, and I grew to love her, and I'm grateful for her presence in my life. But giving birth to her was the worst day of my life, and I will never have another child again.