Throwaway- My former friend ruined my life. I want to hurt her.

Warning- this is long! <br><br>I have been very good at keeping the "do not harm" rule in my practice and after this I'm not sure what to do. I am a witch and I find that I am loosing control. I need help and maybe a different way of looking at this situation, outside of magic. <br><br>I am 15 weeks pregnant with a baby girl and the father is a man named Jake that I work with. Jake and I are not in a relationship. He has a long term girlfriend that is my former "best" friend. I didn't know they had been together for years. I only found out after I was already pregnant. I was hurt and angry and sad and I felt so betrayed. Clearly I was played by both of them. <br><br>After I found out what Jake did I cut him out completely. I blocked him on all social media, I don't answer his calls or his texts. I don't speak to him at work. Jake and his girlfriend did this to me and I just want to leave him alone. I'm not seeing his girlfriend in the same light I used to. I didn't know she was that kind of girl and I am so pissed. I feel betrayed. She was a friend and she let him do this. She knew he was cheating and she also knew he was trying to get me pregnant. She wanted a baby. I know I'm ranting and I'm sorry. Here is the problem, I want to curse her. I want her to feel the way I felt. I did some "magic" already to get her to lose her job. I wrote her name on a piece of paper and burned it in the flame. She did lose her job. I ruined her life. But I don't feel better. I feel worse. She doesn't deserve to lose her job. Clearly I'm not over what she did. I'm just so angry and I don't know how to deal with this. <br><br>Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can get past this? I don't want to put a curse on her. I don't want to hurt her anymore.