I just had a life changing experience

I had been smoking for over 15 years. I've tried quitting many times. Once for 3 years. But last time when I quit I had the worst time. I had no energy. No motivation. Didn't even want to take a shit. I was diagnosed with depression. Everything sucked. My brain was rotting. I even hated listening to music. I didn't want to live.<br><br>I haven't smoked in over a year now. My brain is healing. I feel like myself. I got my energy back. I have a constants urge to listen to music. I have come to a realization that my body is perfectly capable of healing itself. I had a strange feeling all day saying: yes finally. Yes finally I can live. I finally have my brain back. My addiction is gone. All i need to do is clean myself now.<br><br>Now I want to come back to what I hated the most. Being diagnosed with depression. My depression has been so bad that I felt suicidal. But now I know that I am stronger than that. I know that I can get through anything. I had my back against the wall and I still pushed through. I still won. I still made it out. And I'm not gonna let anyone or anything take that away from me. <br><br>I'm scared to fail. But I know that I can't fail. No matter what. I am my rock. I am my hero. I am a survivor. I am the best version of myself. I am the peak version of myself. I am the alpha version of myself.