I'm so tired

Work Christmas party is today. I'm supposed to go pick up my wife right now (2:30 pm), we have to head to her work to watch the kids (so she can get ready), I have to change here (she doesn't want me to come into her house), then head to the party. We have to be there at 5:30.<br><br>I haven't slept. I had to go pick her up at 8:30 last night, I got home at 9:45. I've been trying to sleep since, but for some reason I just can't.<br><br>Why can't we be married? I'm tired of being treated like her boyfriend or something. I'm tired of living in an apartment that she pays for, I'm tired of living in her town, I'm tired of only having my name on the kids' birth certificates, I'm tired of not being able to get a joint tax return, I'm tired of having to wait for her to do everything, I'm tired of having to deal with her issues.<br><br>I'm tired.<br><br>I'm tired.<br><br>I'm so fucking tired.<br><br>I just want to be married. I want to be able to buy her an engagement ring, then take her to get a wedding ring, I want to be able to plan a ceremony, I want to be able to make it official.<br><br>I'm tired.