I lost my wife because of my fetish

35(m) lost his wife because of his fetish. <br><br>Throwaway because I’m not a good man <br>And I don’t want my family to know especially my kids <br><br>I like to use toys. Big ones. <br>And I love that feeling. <br><br>I met my wife 5 years ago and we clicked perfectly and she enjoyed toys as well which made it great. But after a year of marriage she stopped wanting to use dildos or vibes anymore and I couldn’t make her. <br><br>And things were perfect. I never needed to masturbate. She always made sure I was happy. <br><br>Then she got pregnant with our baby boy and our sex life slowed down. I didn’t mind. I can wait. She was uncomfortable. I said it was fine. <br><br>And I masturbated. But I needed to feel like I was with her so I used a vibe. <br>She caught me… <br><br>She was hurt. I told her it was because she was tired and I didn’t want to bother her. <br>She looked at me like I hurt her. Like I cheated. <br>I told her it was just stress relief and she told me that I was doing it wrong if I needed to use a vibe. <br><br>We talked and I told her that I missed the intimacy and she refused to do anything with me. She told me she felt violated because I was doing things behind her back and I said I had to because she refused to have sex. That made it worse. <br>She told me to stop doing it and that solved the problem. <br><br>A month later I woke her up at night and she didn’t like it. I apologized and told her that I missed her and wanted her. But she was upset and told me that she doesn’t like to be “filled” anymore. I told her that it’s our marriage right and we should do it and she lost it and told me that I only wanted her because I couldn’t satisfy myself. <br><br>By that time I was used to telling her the truth so I told her that it’s not true and she accused me of lying. <br>And she left me. <br>A month later she wanted to come back but I couldn’t make love without a toy and she said I’ve changed too much and left again. <br><br>That was 4 years ago. <br><br>And she’s not my wife anymore. <br><br>I can’t do anything without a toy. <br>And I can’t be with someone like me before. <br><br>I destroyed my marriage. <br><br>And I’ve been crying for the past hour because of this. <br><br>And I’m so sorry. But it’s too late.