I'm so sorry if I've been mean to you. I'm in a really tough time. I need someone to talk to.

I (f26) am both mentally ill and chronically ill. I'm in a lot of pain and just want to die even though I love my boyfriend. When I was 13 I spent years in a juvenile mental institution. My mother was abusive. I'm having a lot of flashbacks and I've been lashing out at all my family and even my angelic boyfriend who's trying to support me. I'm so sorry if I've been mean to you. I've been running a blog and getting lots of comments even though it's not popular, and I'm so tired and even those comments make me feel like I need to respond. I also have an online therapy appointment in a few minutes. I've been running a sweat trying to do anything and I don't know what I even care about anymore. I'm so sorry. I'm going to a tough time. <br><br>If you ever want to talk to me, you can DM me your discord and I'll give you my code. I need someone to talk to. I'm fighting tears so hard right now as I type. I feel like I can't breathe. I just want to die. I want the pain to end. I want to forget the pain my mother did to me. I want to forget the pain my father allowed to happen. I have no parents even though my mom is still alive. I have no family. I have no one. <br><br>I'm so sorry. If you ever want to talk to me, I'm here.