I am a 21 year old woman, and I support the manosphere 100%

I just graduated college with a STEM degree, got a job at a top tech company in a very male dominated field, and moved to a new city for job opportunities. I am not skinny, I have a strong opinion, and I turned down almost every guys ask to date me in college. I thought I would be a feminist, I thought I would hate men deep down, I thought I would put myself above everything. I thought society was right, that women should value themselves and try to tear down men. But after being in the real world, I realize that being a woman is not better than being a man, it is simply different. I have many male friends, and they are good friends, and I do not feel like I am better than them because I am a woman.<br><br>I have read 70 pages of r/askteenboys and r/askteen-girls and it is really interesting to see how each gender thinks.<br><br>But the reason I really started to look into men's issues was when I thought about my relationship with my father. My father is frugal, hard working, and always provided for family. He did everything he could to give our family a good life, and he even works over 12 hours a day without any complaints. I sometimes feel worried about him, like whenever he has to give me money or buy dinner or whatever, I can see the disappointment deep down in his eyes even if he doesn't show it. And even though my dad isn't satisfied with me or my brother often, he still works hard to give us a good life.<br><br>I feel like I have failed my father, I feel like I have failed as a daughter, I have not made him proud and I have not accomplished much. I know I am just starting my life and I have a long way to go, but I feel like I have failed as a daughter. And I see my father working so hard every day, and I want to help him but I can't make as much money as he does and I don't think I can satisfy him with my accomplishments. I see him working 12 hours a day, I see him give up his free time to help me with random shit, and I want him to be happy but I don't know how to do it.<br><br>I feel like my mom doesn't love him very much, she keeps making demands, asking him to buy her this and that and this and that. And because I know my dad is frugal, he is disappointed every time he has to buy her something. He is not happy when he has to give people money, and I want him to be satisfied, I want him to feel happy and fulfilled whenever he helps me or my mom. But my mom is never satisfied. She always complains and makes my dad feel like he isn't good enough.<br><br>I wish I could help my dad feel happy, I wish I could help him feel fulfilled. I don't want him to end up like the 60 year old construction workers I see all over the city, who work from 8am to 7pm every day and have no one to take care of them. I don't want him to end up like that, alone, unfulfilled, unhappy, and unsatisfied. I want him to be happy, but I do not know how.<br><br>Whenever I see a homeless guy on the street, I feel bad. I feel like I should help him, I should give him money, but I don't. I grew up middle class, not very rich, not very poor. My parents worked hard to give me a good life even though they are frugal, they worked hard to give me good opportunities and a good future. And because I know how hard my parents work, I don't want to give money to homeless people on the street. But I still feel bad, I want to help them, I want them to be happy, but I don't know how. I feel like giving them money will not satisfy them, it will only make them temporarily happy, and they will still end up on the streets.<br><br>And I look at my relationship with my dad, and I realize that the relationships between parent and children and between men and women are very complicated. And when I read articles about feminist, about women's rights, I feel like they are saying that men oppress women, that men are not good, that men are below women. But I feel like men are not below women, they are just different. And I feel like women are not better than men, because I don't feel like I am better than my dad.<br><br>Edit: Wow this post blew up. I really appreciate my upvotes, I really appreciate my awards. I am glad I could touch many people's hearts. To the people who messaged me their stories, I am so sorry that you had to go through that. To the people who messaged me their numbers and wanted to hit on me, I am flattered but I am not in the mood for dating. I am not a traditionally attractive woman, I am not skinny and do not look like a super model. I am also very busy with work, I do not have time for dates, and I do not think I am good dating material. I really appreciate your interest though, thank you.<br><br>I thought about making my account private to prevent more messages, but I thought it would be better if I just ignored the messages. I am not mad at any of you, and I appreciate you sharing your stories and your interest. Thank you very much, and have a good night!