I’m not sure if I’m comfortable with my feelings about catgirls

I’ve lurked this sub many times to explore my feelings about catgirls. However, the more I read, the more I realize that my feelings and motivations are entirely different from those I see on this subreddit. I don’t hate catgirls; I’m just uncomfortable with what catgirls have become.<br><br>I’ve been a passive fan of catgirls for years, even before I knew what they were. I would see some cute indie art and smut here and there and I thought it was cute. When I realized catgirls were anime characters, I thought they were cool too.<br><br>My journey to discomfort in catgirls was a slow one. I played a lot of video games that I thought were cute like Final Fantasy XIV, Granblue Fantasy, and Neptunia. The catgirls in these games were cute and wholesome. I felt they fit into the quirky worlds that I found myself in.<br><br>It wasn’t until I played more anime and internet-focused video games that I realized something was wrong. Catgirls were *everywhere*. I played Melon for a while and saw catgirls in every other game. I joined Discord servers like Bots and Catgirls and the smut servers and saw catgirls there too.<br><br>I thought maybe anime has always been like this. But then I went back and rewatched a lot of my favorite anime shows. After going through a few dozen, I didn’t see many catgirls at all. Now, I thought maybe anime has always been this way, but it didn’t feel like it. I used to see maybe one catgirl per show. Now, they’re just *everywhere*. Catgirls, nekos, catboys, and catgirls again.<br><br>Then I realized that catgirls have become a fetish commodity. They’re not just cute characters anymore. They’re catgirls with holes, catgirls with balls, catgirls with cats, catgirls with dicks, catgirls with breasts, catgirls eating their own cum, catgirls with cum on their faces, catgirls with cum in their mouths, catgirls with cum on their breasts, catgirls with cum on their tails, and catgirls with cum inside their buttholes. I wasn’t comfortable with this fetishization until I realized that it was smut for everyone.<br><br>If you’re a furry, you get catgirls. If you’re into LOLis, you get catgirls. If you’re into catboys, you get catgirl catboys. If you’re into kemonos, you get catgirls. If you’re into traps, you get catgirl traps. If you’re into futa, you get catgirls. If you’re into futafuta, you get catgirl futafuta. If you’re into solo, smothering, breastfeeding, ballbusting, and anal, you get smut of catgirls doing it in the kawaii style.<br><br>This wasn’t the smut I signed up for. I’m not comfortable with smut of minors. I’m not comfortable with depictions of children breastfeeding. I’m not comfortable with LOLis getting fucked. I’m not comfortable with catgirls with cum on their faces, buttholes, tails, breasts, and mouths. I didn’t want any of this. Catgirls used to be cute for me, but now they’re a cringy reminder of how I don’t like where smut is going.<br><br>Catgirls are unwholesome and unhygienic. They’re not what I think of when I think of wholesome catgirls. I’m not interested in any kink catgirls. I just want my old catgirls back. I want to see wholesome catgirls again. I want to find cute catgirls in anime again without them being catgirl catboys or breastfeeding. I just want them to be cute again.<br><br>I just needed to vent because I’ve seen no one express my feelings about catgirls. I don’t hate catgirls. I hate how catgirls are now.