The very first orgasm I ever had was an accident.

I was masturbating in the towel I was wearing after taking a shower, I didn’t know what I was doing. I didn’t even have any sex drive. I was just bored. I don’t know what made me stop doing it. It wasn’t good. I did it for months before I actually had an orgasm. I don’t know what made me stop. I still don’t like bragging about it. It just happened. I don’t know what I was doing any different. Me and my partner did the same thing as before and I suddenly came. But the second time I didn’t want to. It felt too good. I wanted to feel nothing. An orgasm felt too pleasurable. It was scary. It feels weird to say. I didn’t want to feel anything anymore. So I stopped masturbating again and would almost never orgasm. Me and my partner would have sex for up to an hour. I think it was because I subconsciously hated that I orgasm so I just would stop. So I’m just curious, those of you who have been uncomfortable with orgasm, why did you not want to orgasm, and how did you get over it?