I'm not sure.

I'm not sure if its because of the trauma I experienced at a young age, or if I'm just a psychologically unwell person or if what I am doing is truly wrong. I am sublimated to my younger sister. She makes me do everything for her because I am afraid of her running away because I seriously don't want her to leave. You'll think its love but it surely isn't. I have hurt her many times but she never left. She never left and it makes me hurt more because I don't know if she'll ever leave or not. She doesn't love me, she controls me. If I EVER say no to her, she will tell my parents and I don't want them to know. I don't want them to know her. She's the reason why I couldn't go to my dream school. I couldn't do anything I wanted because she never wanted me to do anything. I hate her so much that it feels like love. I've been hurt by her so much it hurts to see her smile. I've given her the world, everything that I owned. I can't stand it anymore but if I ever try to do something about it, she will tell my parents. I don't want my parents to know, I really don't.