How much does it suck being a mid level manager?

I found out that a member of my team is leaving the company due to "not having the support they need." They're someone I've a history with (previously mentee > coworker > colleague) and I trust their judgement, so I really believe they're right. This has been a very long time coming, and I've decided: I don't want to be a mid level manager.<br><br>I'm a 32 year old Sr Specialist with 2 direct reports of my own and I'm terrified of being a mid level manager. I'm terrified that my boss and the people in charge of setting our goals do not understand our challenges and the best way to tackle them. Without a doubt, my boss has been a better manager than my predecessor, but after working with someone I trust, I don't want to work for someone else. <br><br>I'm extremely fortunate in that I've had the ability to be picky with all my jobs, but this is my first time being in a leadership position. I've been at my company for 2.5 years, and I need to find a next step. I'm not looking at lateral moves, but am open to changing industries. I've been very happy for the past few years, but with my colleague's departure, I've decided that I need to find a role where I'm supported, or I need to get out of management if I don't want to have a toxic work environment.<br><br>I'm extremely frustrated, to put it lightly. I love managing, but I don't want to work at a company that doesn't understand it's employees and doesn't support their development. I want to be a lead in a company that values its employees, but I also want to be in a role that has an impact on the bottom line. I would love any advice on how I should proceed.<br><br>TLDR; It's a hard time to be a manager. I don't want to be a mid level manager at a company that doesn't support its employees.