I realized why I am an incel.

Let me summarize my life before I get to the main point.<br><br>I was born in the wrong century.<br>I grew up in a middle-class family. My dad was a businessman and mom was a school teacher. I am an only child. My dad was 40 and mom was 38 when I was born. My dad had 3 sisters and my mom had 2 sisters. I am a result of my dad and mom's decision to have a child before my dad's company goes bankrupt. It didn't. And I was born.<br><br>I was a nerdy kid. I was 80 pounds when I started high school. I was ashamed of my skinny appearance. I was a smart kid. I skipped 2 grades in elementary school and was in the A/B honor roll until I graduated high school. I had two best friends, Chad and OG.<br><br>Chad was the popular guy in school. He was 6 feet tall and had bulging muscles. He was on the swim, lacrosse, and football teams for 3 years and was captain of the lacrosse team for 1 year. He had a 4.0 GPA and got into an Ivy League college. He is currently working for one of the top 5 consulting firms in NYC.<br><br>OG was the typical nerd. He was 5'8" and very skinny. He was also on the honor roll every year. He is currently working at Google.<br><br>I went to a magnet STEM high school that was 2 miles from home. I only knew 4 people in my high school and I only saw one of them once because she was 2 years older than me. I saw my other 3 friends almost every day. So my life was very boring.<br><br>Chad had a 5-car garage. OG and I would do our homework in Chad's garage every day. Chad was a bit of a playboy. He would hook up with 2 or 3 girls a week. I had a crush on one girl in my French class. I asked her to prom and she said yes. She wore a blue strapless dress and I wore a $2000 black tuxedo to prom. We danced to 2 songs. She asked me to kiss her. I kissed her. I then went back home after the dance was over.<br><br>Then Covid happened. My senior year became a joke. I had to do everything digitally. I missed my high school graduation by 1 year. OG and Chad were both number one in their class and both had 1570 SATs. I had a 4.0 GPA and a 1570 SAT. I didn't get valedictorian because my school is stupid. I applied to 19 colleges and got into 10 of them. My parents were extremely disappointed.<br><br>Chad and OG both went to Ivy League colleges. I went to a college in my home state. College was just as boring. I didn't make any friends. I got a summer internship at a tech company. I currently work for that company. I am about to turn 23.<br><br>I am 5'8" and 178 lbs. I have a muscular body. I live in a 1-bedroom apartment that my parents pay $2200 a month for. I drive a $70,000 Audi. I have a 6-figure income. I have a $150,000 car collection. I have been to 15 countries. I used to work out every day. I don't drink and I don't smoke. I used to have 3 best friends. After Covid, I realized I don't have any friends. I actually hate many people that I meet.<br><br>I used to go to the gym 2 hours a day for the past 7 years. In the past year, I went to the gym less than 10 times. I used to box twice a week. I used to lift weights every day. I have 15-inch biceps. I am extremely disappointed with my facial appearance. I have a depressed face. It is worse now because I don't care about my appearance anymore. My clothes are wrinkly. I haven't had a haircut in 2 years. I don't wear deodorant anymore. I am ashamed of my appearance. I am depressed.<br><br>So I realized why I am an incel. I am ashamed of my appearance. I hate my face. After Covid, I realized my life is a joke and nobody cares about me anymore.