I don't like this world

I am a trans woman who came out after being fully vaccinated. For the first time in my life I am feeling confident, I have a good job and plan on moving out in the future. I am starting a relationship with a woman I am crazy about. However, every time I hear a story about trans people that is not happy I cry. I cry about it so much to the point where I feel as if I am drowning in despair. I have developed a great deal of attraction to the concept of death. I would never kill myself but, I feel like the world would be better without me and I can only imagine how dreadful it must be for trans people who are suffering. For that reason I am not okay with the way the world is.