I’d rather die than become a parent.

I feel like I’m the only person I know who understands the concept of “I’d rather die” and actually stands by it. <br><br>Everyone says they’d rather die than do a lot of things, but a lot of people are full of shit. For example, if you were to say “I’d rather die than go outside and get some fresh air”, I’d be fully prepared to lock you in an airtight room with no windows and allow you to die there due to lack of oxygen to prove your point. <br><br>If you were to say “I’d rather die than go in the ocean”, I’d be fully prepared to throw you into the ocean and allow you to die by drowning to prove your point. <br><br>I’ve spent my entire life observing people around me and I can tell who is actually serious about something like that, and who’s not. I’ve been bluntly asked multiple times before if I’d ever have kids, and my response is always “I’d rather die” and the response is always “oh yeah, you’ll change your mind eventually”. <br><br>Everyone thinks I’m just saying that because I’m still young (21) and haven’t found the right person yet to settle down with. I’ve been single my entire life and I plan to stay that way. I just don’t want kids.<br><br>I’ve been a babysitter/nanny for 8 years and despite all the parents and kids that I’ve worked with, none of it has ever made me want to have kids. I’ve literally had parents beg me to have kids because I’m so good with them and they think I’d make a good mother, but the truth is, I’m only good with them because I know I can give them back at the end of the day and not have to worry about them any more. <br><br>I’m prepared to be childfree, and I have been since I was 11 years old when my mom had my little brother. <br><br>I remember saying to my mom at that time that I’d rather die than have kids and she laughed and said that not everyone feels that way and I can’t make that choice for other people. And I said “I’m not. I’m making that choice for myself. And it’s not a choice, it’s a fact. I will never have children. I’d rather die than become a parent” <br><br>I’m so tired of people saying that I’ll change my mind eventually. I’ve said it continuously for the last 10 years of my life and I’m starting to get annoyed at everyone around me because they think they know me better than I know myself. <br><br>Why can’t people just accept that I don’t want kids? Why can’t people just leave me alone? I’m not saying that everyone should be childfree. I’m not saying that parents are bad people or anything like that. <br><br>I simply do not want to have kids. And I’d rather die than do it. <br><br>Everyone in my life wants me to have kids and it’s to the point where I’ve literally considered getting my tubes tied and then having a hysterectomy just to get everyone in my life to shut up about it. <br><br>I want everyone to know that if I ever end up changing my mind and having kids, it will be because I was forced into it and I do not consent to it. <br><br>And if that were to happen, I would kill myself. <br><br>That’s a fact. <br><br>I’d rather die than have kids.